Frenzy

"Submissive Frenzies are a state or condition that many if not all submissives will experience at one time or another. Many aspects of BDSM are similar to addictions in how they play out in the mind. From that perspective the Frenzies can be considered to be the 'withdrawal' stage."
http://www.steel-door.com/Frenzies.html

I can feel it in my head. An electric buzzing, like someone took the motor speed and set it on high. My jaw is clenching. I am jittery and chock full of nervous energy. I am irritable and snappy, I have a voracious appetite yet nothing satiates me, I drink to slake my thirst and still remain parched. I wander the house aimlessly. I can't sit long enough to focus on a movie. I sleep fitfully, only a few hours at a time. I am crawling out of my own skin.

Owner tried to calm me today, to quieten me, I don't think he fully understands how I feel, not yet. I told him I wanted to be bound with robes and wrapped up tight in blankets and suspended in a hammock. I am sure he thinks I am nuts. I don't know how to do this. This is new for us both. I don't know how to deal with what I am feeling any more than he does I suppose... and with 7 long months before we will be together again, I don't know how to get through it. And if I don't know what I need, how can I explain it to him.

I feel so lost and... desperate.