I have AD/HD, or so I am told, although I hate acknowledging it. I guess I would rather think of myself as self centered, selfish, lazy, stupid, than to think of myself as someone who uses a new and cool diagnosis as an excuse for their behaviour.
"Lacking adequate stimulation, some people with AD/HD will subconsciously seek other means of stimulation. And that includes overeating, drinking to excess, pot smoking, porn viewing, and gambling as well as behaviors such as provoking others into a fight and starting arguments. The adrenaline that is released during the conflict, paradoxically, acts to calm the brain, sort of like the stimulant medication does." Gina Pera
I think I find this sort of release when Sir hits me, especially when its methodical and rhythmic. It centers and calms me, it helps me find focus, it calms the noise in my head, it makes me feel better. Better about myself, better about my life. For that short period of time it all makes sense, I make sense, I have a purpose and a reason.
"Lacking adequate stimulation, some people with AD/HD will subconsciously seek other means of stimulation. And that includes overeating, drinking to excess, pot smoking, porn viewing, and gambling as well as behaviors such as provoking others into a fight and starting arguments. The adrenaline that is released during the conflict, paradoxically, acts to calm the brain, sort of like the stimulant medication does." Gina Pera
I think I find this sort of release when Sir hits me, especially when its methodical and rhythmic. It centers and calms me, it helps me find focus, it calms the noise in my head, it makes me feel better. Better about myself, better about my life. For that short period of time it all makes sense, I make sense, I have a purpose and a reason.
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