Orgasms

I believe Sir has asked me to write how I feel when I orgasm before, but I am sure it hasn't been since we started living together, and a lot has changed since then.

How I feel depends a great deal on the circumstances surrounding the orgasm.

If it's late at night and I know he has work in the morning then it is often a mixture of guilt, coupled with feeling like an inconvenience. I think this often leads to difficulty in reaching climax, despite my body begging for release.

It's difficult to write about feeling any other way than I describe above because it seems like we are always having sex in the wee hours, when he is tired and has work. I do feel loved because he isn't dismissing me, and he is willing to put off his own sleep to take care of my needs, but it is burdened with a lot of guilt.

One of my favourite ways to cum is to have started the 'session' in an off mood. Not really eager for sex, or worse in a bad mood, and then driven so wild by his touch that I am begging for it. At that point when I climax I feel completely and totally owned, truly as if my body were his betraying me to obey his commands.

I don't think I am in a very good place at the moment, I am tending to see everything with a shade of negativity, so choosing now to write about my orgasms is probably not the best time, because even those are harder to come by (no pun intended).